I Wish

I wish I didn't suck so everlastingly much at the little game called life.

I wish I knew the words to say to her, so that I wouldn't be screwing her over anymore than I already have. I am sorry for all the possible pain I have caused her.

I wish my life was more like a movie. I wish my enemies were enemies, and my friends were friends. Heck, I wish I even had enemies. Because having enemies would be so much better than being surrounded by people who just don't care if they're my enemies or friends. They just don't care in any way whatsoever. And as a result of this, I have become so numb. My mind just has no emotion to spare for these things. And I hate that. My life just isn't like a movie, with it's cool characters and expertly placed punch lines. It never has been.

I wish I didn't have the self confidence of a peanut. A single bad look from someone in the halls can leave me ripping myself apart from the inside out trying to find out what I did wrong.

I wish that I could just look forward to the entire school day, instead of just the stairwells (twice on A day, once on B day).

I wish I didn't take everything personally.

I wish I didn't fight with my siblings at all.

I wish I had an ice cream sundae.

I wish I could live at Disneyworld, or even visit it to begin with.

I wish I wouldn't feel so much pressure in my head from all this crap.

I wish that people would stop sometimes making it their goal to embarrass me, or bring me down. Again, I wish I could call these people my enemies.





Ha. I wish.